Alrightttt... as I penned these down, I already posted a HiJackThis! log onto the forums awaiting for help to reply... new com, new virus... what perfect timing! The thing with me is I really hate computer problems.. Software else still ok, but hardware, tough to handle... Can never be a IT support guy...
Anyway this entry is gonna be pretty long so bear with me.. and to add on
a disclaimer
that I ain't emo or sorts and I hope anyone reading this won't be emo as well because that is far from my intention of writing all this down.. the purpose..? Well... just that alot of events unfold before my very eyes these past weeks and I had to CONTRIBUTE to the blog, right?
First things first, the operation took longer than usual... I was instructed not to consume neither food nor drink before the operation.. lets see... my last meal was 2330 on Monday with An-dee and Desi-ree and Lim Hui.. and I ate the after operation dinner about 1900 the next day? Thats like 20 hours and 30 minutes with neither food nor drink.. completely starved...
On that very day, from 11am i await til 330pm then they started the operation... Hmm.. kept sleeping before that... The medicine they injected me was really strong.. made me KO within seconds... Nurses called out my name 3 times... I heard but I couldn't react... too tired to react...
Woke up 1 and 30 hr later... super pain.. lets not go into that..
Now still pain... trying to minimise my movement... so to heal faster and better.. Praying for complete recovery man... Seriously... All I want is to able to move well, work, eat well, sleep well...
15 days MC.. people envy me... but I couldn't wait to hit back work once again... workaholic you might say... To stone and rot at home for a prolonged period ain't a symbol of blessing either. Games don't really interest me that much anymore. TV was still alright... watched 'Yu Le 100 Fen 100' None too bad a show...
Another show that recently got me interested is 'The Conquerer's Story' every weekday 10pm... Well, in a nutshell, its a show about 2 warlords vying for power during the Qin Dynasty.. probably would bore people but me likes. Never really devote my time into chinese history... only for 'Romance of 3 Kingdoms' So this is another one... Humans error serve as lessons even 2200 years after... And how people changed when they were really in power... still, humans continue to err... Do humans really know what they want?
More shows to watch.. some about friendship... to touch on this touchy topic... let me quote from a friend of mine: "Friends are there to be used.." Similiar scenario, Sam. Personally, this is 荒唐... I seriously don't believe in that sort... I feel friends are, from my POV, "Be there when they need you, and they will be there when you need them" Simply put. Might be copying from Sam but this I admit.. His words hold truth in them that I have to agree. During this point of time, I can be really vulnerable... to what? I don't know... Maybe its because of the operation... Maybe other things... Maybe its this... Maybe its that... I'm confused.. but all in all, I only know that these past days I felt really vulnerable..
Fate is a funny thing, friendship is more a funny thing. Makes people cry, laugh, stab here and there, do crazy things, do stupid things, jump over the wall, jump over there and here... It can be built in years but destroyed in seconds... (in case, you're wondering... this is not happening to my life now..) So just thoughts.. wandering off in my puny brain but endless possibilites... endless thoughts... Idle mind is a devil's playground... I dig that line.. completely...
I might as well said this, I got betrayed before and the feeling totally is shit... So I won't want anybody to feel the same way... Nuff' said.
You're still reading on this huge wall of text?
Oh ya, lets take some time to talk about DotA... Yes DotA... YES as in DEFENCE OF THE ANCIENTS... I mentioned that I don't dig games anymore right? DotA is more than a game... it takes complete teamwork, coodination and understanding towards team mates... Had a few games back at LAN center and we got totally owned... but its not a bitter victory because I learnt a thing or to. I apologise to anyone if you think its complete rambling or what... LOL!
Back to the point of being vulnerable.. now this is totally random, isn' it? Sometimes I admit that I feel helpless and all and I totally need someone sensitive to talk to... Not being selective but different people give different opinions... Men are also emotional creatures, same as ladies... doesn't that give us the right to feel vulnerable and emotional at times? We have feelings as well... As in, men sometimes don't share their problems probably due to face and ego and all, and just want to be macho and all that.. maybe I'm like half past 6 type of macho only... hide emotions and hope it goes away...
Maybe I should be old enough to handle my problems.. the thing is I'm now like the breaking to adult stage... theres confusion no doubt... its like.. there are certain issues where I should be old enough to make a decision and a stand but at the same time I'm not sure if I'm PREPARED to make a decision.. to quote S.H.E "我不想长大"... Thats why, I'm like half way only... but the truth and harsh realism is I have to be old, I have to grow old and make decisions.. thats why I want to be stronger..
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger...
'Ttththat don't kill me, can only make me stronger.......'
*dances like Kanye West*
MWUHAHAHAHHA!! Alright dudes.. I'm done...
MAKE SURE YOU READ THE DISCLAIMER on the top of the page!
Thanks to all folks for being there for me and reading this!
Chuiticons! Chuitiform and roll out!
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Name: CHUITICONS
School: SCHOOL OF CHUIz
Age: Maturing each day..
1st Cry: Year 1980, 1984 & 1985
Members:
Karin a.k.a the PC: Kinky Karin who is Steady when faces with extreme crisi/stress at Work.. Greatest Fear of Insecurity.. & like to ask "WHY? aka Wei Shen Mo?" BTW, all the abovementioned stuffs are certified by a Profile Test! not self-proclaimed! haha..
but seriously speaking.. Karin is just a girl who like to spend dollars and cents.. -.-
Steven a.k.a Whiner: Hi my name is steven.. and i cant write anything abt myself... -Sam :D
Sam a.k.a Stewie: Hi I am Sam..i am that dumb guy sitting in his computer room alone and nerdy..i AM veri quiet,not humourous,moody and unfun to be with
i like to create things out of nothing and i made choc truffles...and i am bored/unmotivated.
Andy a.k.a Sensitive Boy: The big-joker over here. With this funny chap around. Your day will always be joyful and fun. An emotional and sensitive person as well.
ChinHeng a.k.a EMO Kid: He is the smartest of the whole team. With IQ 131, you can't go wrong. Analyst and fast thinker. Lets the brain to do the talking instead. Can be quiet at times because the brain is the most prominent aspect.
PengSiong a.k.a SPS success Self-proclaimed "Slave of the economy"!!! A simple-minded, so do not be surprise if he lacks understanding... haahaz...
Limhui a.k.a Levon: (edit info).
Cindy a.k.a Cinddyyyyyyy: A one of the kind B-E-Autiful girl~! =)
CRAIVES
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Pretty Babes
Hot Chicks
Cute Guys
..enough said.. =PpP
